Surgery is complete!

Joe talked to the surgeon around noon. Surgery was “textbook”! She said that Chloe was still not awake from anesthesia and sounded a bit concerned about that, but we received an update about an hour ago that Chloe was awake and sitting up! (!!!!)

No pictures, or any other info at this point. Just glad the scariest part is over.

Today’s the day

Well, today’s the day.

My husband Joe dropped Chloe off at the vet this morning at 7:15. Surgery was scheduled for 9 am, they said it would last about an hour and a half – so they should be wrapping up very soon. I’m anticipating a call from them around lunch time. I’m so nervous, even though I know they are professionals and I know she’ll do great.

Here are a few pictures from the weekend.

It felt appropriate to snap a picture of the darn tumor that is giving our girl this adventure, so there it is. I’ve been calling it Hulk, due to the presence of that vein.

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Jenson, relaxing and sleeping over the weekend. He’s handling Chloe’s absence very hard today. We have a baby monitor IP camera on him today and he’s just beside himself without her. I desperately wish I could have brought him with me to work today, but sadly he’s not allowed in my corporate office. I feel like he grows a few more grey hairs each time Chloe is away from him.

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Our beautiful Bear, sleeping on her absolute favorite dog bed. We got this one at Costco a few months ago – it’s the first dog bed that she would actually use! It’s a nice memory foam base with a pillow top. The faux fur is a little over the top, but only the best for our dogs, right? 🙂

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Chloe, another view, with the Hulk in view.

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The yoga mats we purchased to use as rugs should be delivered this afternoon, and I think maybe the kids and I will decorate a t-shirt with some soft fabric paint tonight that Chloe can wear when she comes home. I’ve got a pretty flower stencil that I used to decorate a t-shirt for our daughter’s first birthday, I think that would be perfect for our girl.

I searched on Instagram yesterday for #tripawds and discovered a huge community there! Lots of inspirational dogs on the #tripawds and #tripawdsofinstagram hashtags – and lots of inspirational pet parents. I’m very grateful for the resources on this community and elsewhere.

Timing

Yesterday, for just a split second, Chloe limped off of/favored her leg. I’ve never noticed before, so I’m unsure if this was the first time, or if I just hadn’t been paying enough attention. It helped reaffirm the timing of her surgery, just a few days away. Which has been hard, even though we know it’s the best for her long term wellness. She once again went chasing into our yard, another failed attempt at catching the bunnies that live under our deck. The strength and speed at which she leaps and lunges is just amazing. I’ll miss that part of her, if she doesn’t get it back.

Surgery has been scheduled!

Chloe’s surgery has been scheduled. We are due to check her in to the vet at 7:15 am on Tuesday, February 16th. The day after her 6th birthday. The surgeon will perform the amputation, and Chloe will spend the night with them.

I’m taking off Wednesday, Thursday and Friday from work. My husband has flexibility, so we’ll see how the week following her surgery goes – if she will go with him to work, or if he will stay home with her.

 

My current thoughts and concerns are:

How do we explain to our kids, so they know what to expect? I think they will easily accept that she will just look different, but it’s the “why” that I don’t know how to explain when they ask. And I am certain Jack (3 years old) will ask. I don’t think Ava (18 months) will ask questions (her language skills are limited) or really care – Chloe will still be able to kiss her lots which is what they both love the most.

How do we keep Jenson, our other boxer, happy and calm while Chloe is away? He gets very nervous, and damaged his crate trying to get out to look for her, last time we had them separated. A friend has suggested essential oils for his anxiety, which I may try out. Please comment with additional suggestions, if you have them!

 

I’m making a short shopping list: rugs with gripping bottoms for the kitchen and hallway, and an elevated food and water dish. We already have a nice memory foam dog bed from Costco, which I think should work nicely. Anything else I should think about getting?

Introduction to Chloe’s story

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Hello! My name is Anita. I’m married to Joe, and we have two young children (Jack, 3; and Ava, 1.5) and two ~6 year old boxers (Chloe, our white boxer; and Jenson, our fawn boxer). This blog will be dedicated mostly to Chloe, but I plan to share a little bit about how this entire process is impacting our family.

We brought Chloe (sometimes called Chloe Bear, or just Bear) home as a 14 week old puppy. She was born on February 15, 2010 and was originally named “Powder” – her momma gave birth to her in the snow while out on a potty break from birthing. She was part of a big litter, and having a puppy in the house was exhausting but a lot of fun.

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About a year later, on February 25, 2011, we adopted Jenson from a local Boxer Rescue group. Little is known about Jenson’s history – he was surrendered to a high-kill shelter and transported to Minnesota. He was, and occasionally is, a timid dog, but Chloe helped teach him how to be a dog. The rescue vet, and our family vet, agree that he was likely around the same age as Chloe – born in late 2009 or early 2010 – but can’t say for sure. Adding a second dog to the family was a lot of fun, but extremely exhausting for us and the dogs. They quickly became the best of friends, though, and are a very bonded pair. Chloe plays the perfect momma role to Jenson’s mostly laid back style.

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We recently discovered a bump on Chloe’s front left leg, above the “elbow” joint. She had previously had a bump in this location but it lasted for a few days, then went away. She’s always been a very lean and fine haired dog – if she gets a mosquito bite we notice the bump from it very quickly – so we figured it was something similar and thought nothing of it. However, months later it came back and then quickly grew to a very large size. Chloe didn’t appear to notice – there has been no change in her mood, temperament, range of motion or anything else. She has never seemed to be in pain, but the rate at which is grew was startling to us. We brought Chloe into the vet for an examination, and they took several fine needle aspirations of the bump and sent the samples off to a lab. We briefly talked best and worse case scenarios. Best case – it was a fatty lump and the vet or a specialized vet surgeon could try to remove it. Worst case – it is cancer and couldn’t be biopsied due to that part of her body having very little extra fat and skin (no margins) and an amputation might have to be considered. Chemo and radiation was also mentioned as a possibility, as part of the worst case diagnosis – but we’ve decided that chemo & radiation didn’t seem like the best option for our family. A few short days later, the results were in – spindle cell sarcoma. Our vet and a veterinary surgeon both examined Chloe, and it was determined that they would not be able to get it all with an attempt at a biopsy, and amputation was recommended. We had x-rays and bloodwork performed that next week – wanting to determine if the cancer had spread, or if her internal organs were cancer free. Those tests came back cancer free! Now the big decision – how do we go forward? There was a lot of crying, a lot of searching on the internet, and a lot of talking with friends. Chloe has exhibited no pain, no restriction in movement, no change to her appetite or sleep patterns. Just the other night, she took a leap off our patio, into the snowy lawn, to chase a bunny across our back yard. I think she spanned about 10 feet with her initial horizontal leap! She’s always been a very high energy, driven dog. We have been nervous about how an amputation would impact the quality of her life – because right now, the quality is really good! Chloe loves to wrestle with Jenson, and occasionally with our kids (gently, and supervised!).  We have been worried about the what ifs – what if the cancer just comes back in another place a year from now? What if she won’t be able to run and chase again? But ultimately we’ve decided that we can’t live in fear of future cancer, and in hope that she’ll eventually learn how to run and chase and be a dog just like she is now. Of course, after the emotional side of the struggle, we have the rational side of it. What is this going to cost us? In what ways will this impact our lives – from the actual surgery, to rehab, and beyond? How will this impact our children? Searching and asking others, I’ve learned there is a very big range of costs for this procedure: $2000 to $6000 was what I had been seeing. Wow. We didn’t want the cost of something to be a deciding factor, but as a young family, unfortunately that definitely needed to be considered. The surgeon’s price quote came in at the lower end of that range, so after discussing how we’d adjust our own financial priorities, we decided that the amputation was officially our decision.

I made the call today to our vet, to set up an appointment to discuss how we can be prepared for post-procedure life immediately after surgery, and to get a medical perspective on the short to medium term adjustments; as well as an idea on how much time we should be home with Chloe after the surgery. Our vet is coordinating schedules with the surgeon, and we plan to move forward with surgery within the next few weeks.

This process has been eye opening, for sure. It’s been emotional, with bits of rational decision making mixed in. I’m glad that we ultimately have the financial ability (even if it is a bit of a stretch to do so) to pursue this medical procedure. We are fortunate to have the knowledge, and financial ability, to hopefully give Chloe many more years of life – cancer free. That is a powerful idea, and what is helping us get through this. Right now, her quality of life is great. We’ll have a rough period after surgery, I’m sure. But hopefully, she’ll live out the rest of her life as a happy dog. We didn’t want to wait until the tumor grew large enough to restrict motion, cause pain, or spread to her internal organs – which then would just be pain management until she indicated that it was time to cross the rainbow bridge.

More to come. Thank you for reading and going on this journey with us.